Thursday, September 27, 2007
5th Month Anniversary at Underwaterworld
Don't ever wear a dress to Sentosa, especially a black dress, you will die from heat. Because it was a special day, I dressed up nicely... so I wore a black tube dress.. I should have shirted up instead.
I tried this hairstyle.
No way, I can't live without fringe, I just look too old. A nicer term will be Mature...
With bangs, Bahaha, I am prepared for my date! I like my hairstyle, so I camwhored too much. Endure~
Back to topic.
Isaac and I took a monorail from Vivocity to Dolphin Lagoon. The admission ticket for Underwater World and Dolphin Lagoon is $19.90 for adults. SO EXPENSIVE! But the trip was worth it, especially when you are spending time and money with your love ones, everything is worth it.
A peaceful beach to catch the pink dolphins performance.
It was scorching hot, my black dress was soaked with perspiration. Disgusting.
I caught this walking past me.
This pink dolphin Jumbo is waving at me!
Some stunts. So nice!
The pink dolphins are not only cute, they are clever and obedient too. How I wish I can keep a dolphin as a pet. They are just like a dog-fish.
They pick balls like dogs, wag their tails like dogs and make sounds like a dog crying. But too bad, they can't run on legs, they can only swim. Mummy, I want a dog-fish!
They asked for volunteers to play with the dolphins and get a kiss from the dolphins. But too bad, I was wearing a dress, I couldn't voluntteer. If not I would have jumped inside the water.
By the way, don't buy any food in Sentosa. I can get a cup-corn in school for
$1.50 and the normal price in cinemas is $2. But the small cup-corn in Sentosa is $3. Day light robbery sia. I can buy 2 plates of chicken rice in NUS engineering canteen liao.
It was really crowded, especially when we were lining up at the bus stop to take the red-line bus to Underwater World. But we were directed by an indian worker wrongly.
We went to the exit lane. We were supposed to line up at the red-line lanes. So when the red-line bus reached the bus stop, only the people from the red-line queues can get up the bus. The people infront of us were so angry that they complained to the malay worker.
He said, "You are at the wrong lane, we only allow the "guest" here at the red-line lanes to get up first, if you want to complain, complain to Sentosa office"
We waited very long because we have to wait until the red-line people got up. It will be wasting so much time because there were so many people. A woman infront of me started screaming and shouting at the malay worker.
The people started quarreling with the worker, Isaac was very angry also. I just heck care, didn't want to quarrel with people who don't mean anything to me.
Then the indian worker came to apologise to us, due to miscommunication, he directed us to the wrong lane. Then the woman and the guy infront started scolding him. Isaac also scolded him for directing us wrongly.
He apologised to us and let us get up the bus first. I told Isaac to thank the indian worker. He apologised again.
Happy, happy. We were heading to the Underwater World. Here are the pictures we took.
At thai express for dinner. Spicy shioks me up the day.
Isaac took a video of me. He told me he was taking a picture..WTH, and he asked me to act cute...
I tried this hairstyle.
No way, I can't live without fringe, I just look too old. A nicer term will be Mature...
With bangs, Bahaha, I am prepared for my date! I like my hairstyle, so I camwhored too much. Endure~
Back to topic.
Isaac and I took a monorail from Vivocity to Dolphin Lagoon. The admission ticket for Underwater World and Dolphin Lagoon is $19.90 for adults. SO EXPENSIVE! But the trip was worth it, especially when you are spending time and money with your love ones, everything is worth it.
A peaceful beach to catch the pink dolphins performance.
It was scorching hot, my black dress was soaked with perspiration. Disgusting.
I caught this walking past me.
This pink dolphin Jumbo is waving at me!
Some stunts. So nice!
The pink dolphins are not only cute, they are clever and obedient too. How I wish I can keep a dolphin as a pet. They are just like a dog-fish.
They pick balls like dogs, wag their tails like dogs and make sounds like a dog crying. But too bad, they can't run on legs, they can only swim. Mummy, I want a dog-fish!
They asked for volunteers to play with the dolphins and get a kiss from the dolphins. But too bad, I was wearing a dress, I couldn't voluntteer. If not I would have jumped inside the water.
By the way, don't buy any food in Sentosa. I can get a cup-corn in school for
$1.50 and the normal price in cinemas is $2. But the small cup-corn in Sentosa is $3. Day light robbery sia. I can buy 2 plates of chicken rice in NUS engineering canteen liao.
It was really crowded, especially when we were lining up at the bus stop to take the red-line bus to Underwater World. But we were directed by an indian worker wrongly.
We went to the exit lane. We were supposed to line up at the red-line lanes. So when the red-line bus reached the bus stop, only the people from the red-line queues can get up the bus. The people infront of us were so angry that they complained to the malay worker.
He said, "You are at the wrong lane, we only allow the "guest" here at the red-line lanes to get up first, if you want to complain, complain to Sentosa office"
We waited very long because we have to wait until the red-line people got up. It will be wasting so much time because there were so many people. A woman infront of me started screaming and shouting at the malay worker.
The people started quarreling with the worker, Isaac was very angry also. I just heck care, didn't want to quarrel with people who don't mean anything to me.
Then the indian worker came to apologise to us, due to miscommunication, he directed us to the wrong lane. Then the woman and the guy infront started scolding him. Isaac also scolded him for directing us wrongly.
He apologised to us and let us get up the bus first. I told Isaac to thank the indian worker. He apologised again.
Happy, happy. We were heading to the Underwater World. Here are the pictures we took.
At thai express for dinner. Spicy shioks me up the day.
Isaac took a video of me. He told me he was taking a picture..WTH, and he asked me to act cute...
jastubee =)) 6:00 PM.
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Why are there weird people?
The world is full of weird people, why everybody can't be normal?
This guy is a year older than me and he confessed that he molested his cousins and use their panties for his own pleasure. I just thought to myself, why people will want to do all these rubbish?
There are 2 people I can think of whom I can push the blame to.
Parents
Nobody can blame this child because even though it is his own responsibility to know what is right and wrong but the parents are the one who bring up this child from young.
Improper upbringing always leads to weird people with poor morals and low maturity of life. The only time children knows how to think is when they are reaching 21 years old. This guy is already 20 and is behaving like this. I can only blame his parents.
His parents are the one who have to discipline him from young, it is proven that children with good parents are more well-behaved in the future.
However besides parents, friends are also a major source for causing weird behaviour in children. Firstly, children are very close to their parents, so parents have to start discipling them. After this stage, these children have become teenagers and friends are now the major influence to them. So both friends and parents are the ones changing the lives of these children.
But friends are not to be blamed here, parents should be blamed again. Parents should start teaching kids what kind of friends to mix with, not ah lians or gangsters, but just friends that are nice, friendly and helpful.
If my parents didn't educate me, I am already a lesbian, prostitute, spoilt child, gangster or drug addict. But definitely still not perfect.
So the cycle starts when we have weird parents. Weird parents induce weird behaviour and attitude to their children.
But there is always a minority that some children can survive to become street-smart and mature even without the care of their parents, the life of these children are moulded because of hardships. You often see this example in drama shows but in reality, it is really a small minority.
Parents are still important in determining what kind of children they will nurture or turn into.
The question is... how to be a good parent?
Big problem...
jastubee =)) 9:20 PM.
Monday, September 17, 2007
Weird online people.
1. Benzieme
This guy in stomp is killing me. He is so f-ing retarded, he is an attention seeker in stomp la.
His threads are full of nonsense.
I really agree that he can be a script-writer.
Some of his funny threads.
Which girl is that desperate?
He is a retards.
He fights like a cartoon. Idiot.
Another online freak.
2. Chris Crocker
Is a faggot who loves brtiney spears and loves to dress like a woman. He is really beautiful, he has beautiful eyes.
I subscribed to him, LOL. He has 50 000 subscribers in youtube and 5 million views for his videos!
Some weird and retarded videos of him. M18 please.
Weird people everywhere... people are weird because they are exposed to weird environment and pressure.
I am weird too, I think too much. SO freaky...
This guy in stomp is killing me. He is so f-ing retarded, he is an attention seeker in stomp la.
His threads are full of nonsense.
I really agree that he can be a script-writer.
Some of his funny threads.
Which girl is that desperate?
He is a retards.
He fights like a cartoon. Idiot.
Another online freak.
2. Chris Crocker
Is a faggot who loves brtiney spears and loves to dress like a woman. He is really beautiful, he has beautiful eyes.
I subscribed to him, LOL. He has 50 000 subscribers in youtube and 5 million views for his videos!
Some weird and retarded videos of him. M18 please.
Weird people everywhere... people are weird because they are exposed to weird environment and pressure.
I am weird too, I think too much. SO freaky...
jastubee =)) 2:08 AM.
Sunday, September 16, 2007
I need all these activites to destress...
I have not been blogging for a long time because of this:
Please accept this excuse-> I am busy studying!
Seriously I need to destress, these are my methods:
1. New friends
Now going to school is fun because of the new friends I made there. Homework and lectures are what I dread most, I rather spend more time with my new friends.
My new close friends are Chin Huat, Wayne, Kiat Joo, Jesslyn, Hong Ju and Han Sheng. 2 girls and 4 guys.
Chin Huat is a very helpful friend, he is from my orientation group but he always hang out with my classmates for lunch and lectures. He always helps me with my homework and teaches me too. He is just a call away when I have problems with my homework.
Wayne is this lame and funny friend I have. He likes to suan me, or should I say he likes to bully me. Sometimes he understands me, sometimes he don't. He always provide me with answers with my homework also. Haha. This guy wants to be my guy bestfriend, haha. He is really nice too!
Kiat Joo is this "bimbo" and sexy girl, she is high class and clever. She shops too much and always influences me with new clothes and always asks me out for shopping, haha. I want to go shopping with her in future too!
Jesslyn is this mysterious girl in my class, she looks like a slacker but she is actually clever. She is very sweet and funny too.
Hong Ju is my teacher! He is a scholar and is SUPER CLEVER. He makes teaching so easy and he is the first person I turn to when I face a challenging problem. He has a high maturity level about life, relationships, health and work. That explains his clever and smart brain.
Han Sheng is a police scholar and is the nicest friend I ever met. But Isaac is the nicest and the best guy la. He teaches me, drives me to school and fetches me home sometimes. He and Hong Ju stay in Ang Mo Kio, so we can always get to meet up in AMK for lunch or for group study. I went to their hostel once to do an online assignment, both of them taught me how to do.
I have such great friends! Without them, I will be more stress in NUS.
2. Hang out with old friends.
On September 8, I went out with Ying Hui, Shi Yun and Hui Ying to celebrate Ying Hui birthday.
We bought Fasio mascara, an eye shadow and some nail polish and they are placed in a cute box. When Ying Hui reached LIDO, we decided not to give her the present yet because we wanted to give her a surprise.
My lame surprise:
When 4 of us walked into the cinema, it was really dark, I knew where Ying Hui would be sitting.
I pretended to fall down while walking to her seat, at the same time I placed her present underneath her chair. Haha.
The climax was worth waiting for. When I was watching Evan Almighty halfway, the movie was showing the part where the animals were rushing into the Ark. Immediately, I screamed, "Got rats!" and moved my legs and hands frantically, trying to catch Ying Hui's attention. Hui ying was sitting beside her, she told Ying Hui about it and Ying Hui saw my exaggerated reactions.
She thought I was paranoid because the show was showing all the animals rushing into the ark. I said I felt rats underneath the chair. After much confusion, she finally looked underneath her chair and found her present..
Haha.
Outside Lido, there was this huge poster and there was a hole for people to put their face into it. We were having fun with the poster.
Hui Ying
Me
BTW, while I was doing this, there was this dustbin next to me. When I was trying to act retarded making a cross-eyed expression, an ANG MO woman came to throw her rubbish into the dustbin, when she saw me, she screamed, "WHAT THE FUCK!"
She was shocked because she did not know I was there and did not know I was that retarded.... the way she looked at me as if she just saw a freak or a monster. Crap...
Shi Yun
Ying Hui
Hui Ying loves rats.
I hate rats.
3. Meeting Isaac is another way to destress
He is always there to support me.
I got muscle eh.
damn..his is bigger than mine...
4. Cleaning my room and tidying up my table.
I need to have a clean environment to keep me awake and let me be able to concentrate better.
5. Hanging out with my family memebers.
I celebrated my grandmother's 76th birthday today! I was at her house with my relatives before going to Jumbo seafood restaurant for dinner.
He is my cousin's son, I am his GU GU!
I will be uploading more pics taken with Shi Yun's camera on Ying Hui's birthday.
Please accept this excuse-> I am busy studying!
Seriously I need to destress, these are my methods:
1. New friends
Now going to school is fun because of the new friends I made there. Homework and lectures are what I dread most, I rather spend more time with my new friends.
My new close friends are Chin Huat, Wayne, Kiat Joo, Jesslyn, Hong Ju and Han Sheng. 2 girls and 4 guys.
Chin Huat is a very helpful friend, he is from my orientation group but he always hang out with my classmates for lunch and lectures. He always helps me with my homework and teaches me too. He is just a call away when I have problems with my homework.
Wayne is this lame and funny friend I have. He likes to suan me, or should I say he likes to bully me. Sometimes he understands me, sometimes he don't. He always provide me with answers with my homework also. Haha. This guy wants to be my guy bestfriend, haha. He is really nice too!
Kiat Joo is this "bimbo" and sexy girl, she is high class and clever. She shops too much and always influences me with new clothes and always asks me out for shopping, haha. I want to go shopping with her in future too!
Jesslyn is this mysterious girl in my class, she looks like a slacker but she is actually clever. She is very sweet and funny too.
Hong Ju is my teacher! He is a scholar and is SUPER CLEVER. He makes teaching so easy and he is the first person I turn to when I face a challenging problem. He has a high maturity level about life, relationships, health and work. That explains his clever and smart brain.
Han Sheng is a police scholar and is the nicest friend I ever met. But Isaac is the nicest and the best guy la. He teaches me, drives me to school and fetches me home sometimes. He and Hong Ju stay in Ang Mo Kio, so we can always get to meet up in AMK for lunch or for group study. I went to their hostel once to do an online assignment, both of them taught me how to do.
I have such great friends! Without them, I will be more stress in NUS.
2. Hang out with old friends.
On September 8, I went out with Ying Hui, Shi Yun and Hui Ying to celebrate Ying Hui birthday.
We bought Fasio mascara, an eye shadow and some nail polish and they are placed in a cute box. When Ying Hui reached LIDO, we decided not to give her the present yet because we wanted to give her a surprise.
My lame surprise:
When 4 of us walked into the cinema, it was really dark, I knew where Ying Hui would be sitting.
I pretended to fall down while walking to her seat, at the same time I placed her present underneath her chair. Haha.
The climax was worth waiting for. When I was watching Evan Almighty halfway, the movie was showing the part where the animals were rushing into the Ark. Immediately, I screamed, "Got rats!" and moved my legs and hands frantically, trying to catch Ying Hui's attention. Hui ying was sitting beside her, she told Ying Hui about it and Ying Hui saw my exaggerated reactions.
She thought I was paranoid because the show was showing all the animals rushing into the ark. I said I felt rats underneath the chair. After much confusion, she finally looked underneath her chair and found her present..
Haha.
Outside Lido, there was this huge poster and there was a hole for people to put their face into it. We were having fun with the poster.
Hui Ying
Me
BTW, while I was doing this, there was this dustbin next to me. When I was trying to act retarded making a cross-eyed expression, an ANG MO woman came to throw her rubbish into the dustbin, when she saw me, she screamed, "WHAT THE FUCK!"
She was shocked because she did not know I was there and did not know I was that retarded.... the way she looked at me as if she just saw a freak or a monster. Crap...
Shi Yun
Ying Hui
Hui Ying loves rats.
I hate rats.
3. Meeting Isaac is another way to destress
He is always there to support me.
I got muscle eh.
damn..his is bigger than mine...
4. Cleaning my room and tidying up my table.
I need to have a clean environment to keep me awake and let me be able to concentrate better.
5. Hanging out with my family memebers.
I celebrated my grandmother's 76th birthday today! I was at her house with my relatives before going to Jumbo seafood restaurant for dinner.
He is my cousin's son, I am his GU GU!
I will be uploading more pics taken with Shi Yun's camera on Ying Hui's birthday.
jastubee =)) 11:50 PM.
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
Doctors suck
I don't think I am having migraine, I think I am having gastric flu. When I took the medicine for migraine, I got more headache and nausea, I was feeling worse than before, felt like ending my sufferings.
So I stopped eating my medicine and concentrate on my studies. In order to remove my headache, I told myself to let Jesus take care of it, I will not bother about my headache anymore.
I don't care about my body already, my headache I let Jesus to handle it. So I still study in the mrt to school(btw, I am taking mrt now). I wake up early to study, sleep late to study but of course I always take lots of break because I love breaks.
I study more because I want to catch up and at the same time try to ignore focusing on my headache. And you know what...
Today I am completely healed!!!!
I stopped taking my medicine on monday and today I am perfectly alright. I woke up early today to read newspaper and prepare breakfast and read my textbook before heading off to school.
In the mrt, I was revising my notes and I could concentrate better! I was so happy. And I have lots of appetite too! My flat tummy due to sickness is finally transforming to a pocket tummy! I love my new bulging tummy! It feels so normal now.
Do you know why I said I think I am not having migraine? I think I am having gastric flu caused by viral infection and stress. Because tuesday night I had diarrhoea and today I had diarrhoea again. Hurray! I rather have diarrhoea than nausea. Shitting is fun. Especially when it is shitting muddy water. haha.
Gastric flu is nausea with headache and the end of gastric flu is always diarrhoea. So am I having migraine or gastric flu?
If I am having gastric flu, I can save $256 on the neurologist's consulation fees and migraine medicine! I only took 2 days of medicine out of 2 weeks of medicine. And I am supposed to see him 2 weeks later. I guess I will tell him, "You diagnosed me wrongly, I think I am having gastric flu" haha, lets see his facial expression...
Doctors should check my body entirely, when I first met the doctors they will ask this question, "HI jasmine, what happened to you?" I told them all they symptoms and they just diagnosed on the spot without doing a thorough check.
I think self-diagnosis is better than doctor's diagnosis because you know your body better.
So I stopped eating my medicine and concentrate on my studies. In order to remove my headache, I told myself to let Jesus take care of it, I will not bother about my headache anymore.
I don't care about my body already, my headache I let Jesus to handle it. So I still study in the mrt to school(btw, I am taking mrt now). I wake up early to study, sleep late to study but of course I always take lots of break because I love breaks.
I study more because I want to catch up and at the same time try to ignore focusing on my headache. And you know what...
Today I am completely healed!!!!
I stopped taking my medicine on monday and today I am perfectly alright. I woke up early today to read newspaper and prepare breakfast and read my textbook before heading off to school.
In the mrt, I was revising my notes and I could concentrate better! I was so happy. And I have lots of appetite too! My flat tummy due to sickness is finally transforming to a pocket tummy! I love my new bulging tummy! It feels so normal now.
Do you know why I said I think I am not having migraine? I think I am having gastric flu caused by viral infection and stress. Because tuesday night I had diarrhoea and today I had diarrhoea again. Hurray! I rather have diarrhoea than nausea. Shitting is fun. Especially when it is shitting muddy water. haha.
Gastric flu is nausea with headache and the end of gastric flu is always diarrhoea. So am I having migraine or gastric flu?
If I am having gastric flu, I can save $256 on the neurologist's consulation fees and migraine medicine! I only took 2 days of medicine out of 2 weeks of medicine. And I am supposed to see him 2 weeks later. I guess I will tell him, "You diagnosed me wrongly, I think I am having gastric flu" haha, lets see his facial expression...
Doctors should check my body entirely, when I first met the doctors they will ask this question, "HI jasmine, what happened to you?" I told them all they symptoms and they just diagnosed on the spot without doing a thorough check.
I think self-diagnosis is better than doctor's diagnosis because you know your body better.
jastubee =)) 10:11 PM.
Sunday, September 02, 2007
Why me?
Why me? This question is often said by people who are suffering from diseases or who are dying soon.
I am suffering from migraine. I ate the medicine the neurologist prescribed to me, medicine for my vomiting, reducing stress and motion sickness. Today I felt even more worse than before.
I felt like vomiting, my head is spinning and I have to be bed-ridden because my headache kills. It has already been 4 freaking weeks and I have yet to recover. School term just started and why am I so unfortunate to suffer from migraine when I need to catch up with my homework and revision?
I am so pessimistic now------LIFE SUCKS NOW! I can't study, I can't play, I am just like a dead person.
I hate my migraine, it is freaking killing me. I rather jump down and forget about all the sufferings.
But for the sake of my parents and people who know me, I rather not do anything foolish that may hurt them.
I went to church last sunday with my mother and Isaac, I knew I was feeling bad but during the worship I felt good, but somehow after church I did not feel good again.
I have skipped too much schools and too much services. I wanted to go to church today with Isaac but my freaking headache stopped me from going. Congratulations devil, you did it. But I won't let you off next time, I will force myself out of the house to exercise and go to school and services.
I won't faint with Jesus besides me, I must put my trust in Him, by His stripes, I will be healed.
I am suffering from migraine. I ate the medicine the neurologist prescribed to me, medicine for my vomiting, reducing stress and motion sickness. Today I felt even more worse than before.
I felt like vomiting, my head is spinning and I have to be bed-ridden because my headache kills. It has already been 4 freaking weeks and I have yet to recover. School term just started and why am I so unfortunate to suffer from migraine when I need to catch up with my homework and revision?
I am so pessimistic now------LIFE SUCKS NOW! I can't study, I can't play, I am just like a dead person.
I hate my migraine, it is freaking killing me. I rather jump down and forget about all the sufferings.
But for the sake of my parents and people who know me, I rather not do anything foolish that may hurt them.
I went to church last sunday with my mother and Isaac, I knew I was feeling bad but during the worship I felt good, but somehow after church I did not feel good again.
I have skipped too much schools and too much services. I wanted to go to church today with Isaac but my freaking headache stopped me from going. Congratulations devil, you did it. But I won't let you off next time, I will force myself out of the house to exercise and go to school and services.
I won't faint with Jesus besides me, I must put my trust in Him, by His stripes, I will be healed.
jastubee =)) 6:36 PM.
Saturday, September 01, 2007
Neurologist diagnosed me with migraine. I dread school
I have seen my family doctor 4 times for the past 4 weeks, so it is time for me to be referred to a specialist to examine my headache/nausea problem.
Everyday when I wake up in the morning, I will get headache and nausea. In the bus on the way to school, NUS, I have motion sickness and when I get down the bus, I always wanted to vomit.
In the lectures I am feeling alright, but whenever I take a bus home or to school, I will have motion sickness. My nausea ruins my day and my mood, I can't study, I can't play. I just have no mood to do anything because I always feel like vomiting.
My nausea and headache started when school term started. The bidding system and the new environment, I was still not used to it, I was so stressed up. The people in my class are clever people, scholars, people who think about themselves, selfish people and self-centered people. I can never find someone like a friend to talk to and to have fun with like my secondary school friends.
Their mind is always on studies. That is why I am so stressed up, I dread school. I have to wake up everyday just to see lectures talk shit, tutors talking to aliens, friends talking about maths and homework. NUS is so lifeless!
I rather be spoonfed, seconday school and JC is so much fun. I just have to follow the timetable and make friends and get prepared for exams at the end of the semester. My exams are like taking place every week now, we have online assignments that are included in my CAP.
Before I entered university, I told myself I must aim for the best and do my best. Try to get the first class honour. Well after what the neurologist told me today, my acute migraine is caused by stress. I have placed my expectation too high.
Everybody has a threshold for the amount of stress that I can take, everybody is different. I want to be like my brother, he is so clever, he is in Raffles Institution and I bet he can be a lawyer. But I can't be like him, even if I perservere, the more I will have stress and will breakdown.
I brokedown a few weeks back because I was so stressed. I could not cope with my studies and homework. The maths is so difficult, the physics is so complex. Who am I going to turn to? I am lost in the wilderness, I need someone to pick me up.
If I were to change course, there is no course I am interested in. Business sucks because I hate writing essays everyday. Life science sucks because there is alot of memory work and I will die there. Engineering sucks because the maths and physics is a killer. SO what to do? Drop out ar?
I realise this new environment is a drastic change for me, I need to learn to be independent and to make new friends. And one most important thing that the neurologist told me, as long as you go into UNI, just get a degree to pass CAN ALREADY. Why must get 1st class honour or do double degree?
Some people are clever and are able to get PHD or 1st class honour, but some people like me can't. I can't wear shoes that are too big for me, I just need to find a boots just right for me.
That is why I don't care if I can't get a first class or second class honour. As long as I graduate from university, get a job, a husband and lead a simple life can already. Why make your life more difficult by getting double degrees?
The neurologist also mentioned about a marathon. He joined a marathon not just to get first for the marathon. He joined it for fun to get the certificate of participation. He took 4 hours to complete whereas those winners took 2 hours to complete. As long as you reach the finish line, that is the best, why need to compete with those runners?
My mother said I am a woman, when I get married, I need to take care of the kids and family, woman don't work as much as man. I just get a husband to support me and my family and that is enough.
I can't take too much stress, so I am not studying hard. I am studying at my own pace, a relax pace while enjoying life.
I am so thankful to have understanding parents, they are willing to pay all the textbooks for my studies and pay all the doctor fees just to get me treated. They don't want me to get 1st class honour, they just want me to pass and lead a simple life. They tell me to relax and not to think so much.
The medical fees with consultation with the neurologist just now for 45 mintues was $256. It is so expensive, he gave me medicine to control stress and to cure my migraine. I need to see him again 2 weeks later.
Hopefully I can resume going to school normally. I skipped school a number of times because I always have headache and nausea.
I want to earn lots of money, but I know myself now, it is within my capability, I must bring down my expectations. My dream occupation last time was to be a CEO, but now all I want is to be somebody's wife, many people's mother and a filial child. As long as I am a good person and leading a simple and relax life, that is all I am happy about.
I need to destress! It is a killer!
Everyday when I wake up in the morning, I will get headache and nausea. In the bus on the way to school, NUS, I have motion sickness and when I get down the bus, I always wanted to vomit.
In the lectures I am feeling alright, but whenever I take a bus home or to school, I will have motion sickness. My nausea ruins my day and my mood, I can't study, I can't play. I just have no mood to do anything because I always feel like vomiting.
My nausea and headache started when school term started. The bidding system and the new environment, I was still not used to it, I was so stressed up. The people in my class are clever people, scholars, people who think about themselves, selfish people and self-centered people. I can never find someone like a friend to talk to and to have fun with like my secondary school friends.
Their mind is always on studies. That is why I am so stressed up, I dread school. I have to wake up everyday just to see lectures talk shit, tutors talking to aliens, friends talking about maths and homework. NUS is so lifeless!
I rather be spoonfed, seconday school and JC is so much fun. I just have to follow the timetable and make friends and get prepared for exams at the end of the semester. My exams are like taking place every week now, we have online assignments that are included in my CAP.
Before I entered university, I told myself I must aim for the best and do my best. Try to get the first class honour. Well after what the neurologist told me today, my acute migraine is caused by stress. I have placed my expectation too high.
Everybody has a threshold for the amount of stress that I can take, everybody is different. I want to be like my brother, he is so clever, he is in Raffles Institution and I bet he can be a lawyer. But I can't be like him, even if I perservere, the more I will have stress and will breakdown.
I brokedown a few weeks back because I was so stressed. I could not cope with my studies and homework. The maths is so difficult, the physics is so complex. Who am I going to turn to? I am lost in the wilderness, I need someone to pick me up.
If I were to change course, there is no course I am interested in. Business sucks because I hate writing essays everyday. Life science sucks because there is alot of memory work and I will die there. Engineering sucks because the maths and physics is a killer. SO what to do? Drop out ar?
I realise this new environment is a drastic change for me, I need to learn to be independent and to make new friends. And one most important thing that the neurologist told me, as long as you go into UNI, just get a degree to pass CAN ALREADY. Why must get 1st class honour or do double degree?
Some people are clever and are able to get PHD or 1st class honour, but some people like me can't. I can't wear shoes that are too big for me, I just need to find a boots just right for me.
That is why I don't care if I can't get a first class or second class honour. As long as I graduate from university, get a job, a husband and lead a simple life can already. Why make your life more difficult by getting double degrees?
The neurologist also mentioned about a marathon. He joined a marathon not just to get first for the marathon. He joined it for fun to get the certificate of participation. He took 4 hours to complete whereas those winners took 2 hours to complete. As long as you reach the finish line, that is the best, why need to compete with those runners?
My mother said I am a woman, when I get married, I need to take care of the kids and family, woman don't work as much as man. I just get a husband to support me and my family and that is enough.
I can't take too much stress, so I am not studying hard. I am studying at my own pace, a relax pace while enjoying life.
I am so thankful to have understanding parents, they are willing to pay all the textbooks for my studies and pay all the doctor fees just to get me treated. They don't want me to get 1st class honour, they just want me to pass and lead a simple life. They tell me to relax and not to think so much.
The medical fees with consultation with the neurologist just now for 45 mintues was $256. It is so expensive, he gave me medicine to control stress and to cure my migraine. I need to see him again 2 weeks later.
Hopefully I can resume going to school normally. I skipped school a number of times because I always have headache and nausea.
I want to earn lots of money, but I know myself now, it is within my capability, I must bring down my expectations. My dream occupation last time was to be a CEO, but now all I want is to be somebody's wife, many people's mother and a filial child. As long as I am a good person and leading a simple and relax life, that is all I am happy about.
I need to destress! It is a killer!
jastubee =)) 3:04 PM.
