Tuesday, August 28, 2007
My classmates mug 100 times faster than me!
Today during my C programming tutorial, I wanted to vomit blood. The attitude of most students in my class are really CMI. They are self-centered, selfish and care about themselves only. They only want to win this competition and be the top in the class.
But honestly, there are scholars and super clever people in my class. They did their tutorials and 99% of their answers are correct. My answers are like 50% correct, I even got Isaac to help me with programming or else I may get 100%
WRONG.
I have to start studying now and have a constructive timetable to make my revision regular and consistent.
An example of what I have done. C programming needs to use a program to generate this.
1 /*------------------------------------------------------------*/
2 /* Tutorial question 12 */
3 /* */
4 /* This program computes Nemo's Cumulative Average Point (CAP)*/
5
6 #include
7 #include
8
9 int main(void)
10 {
11 /* Declare and initialise variables. */
12 double m1=4, m2=5, m3=4, m4=4, m5=3,
13 g1=3, g2=2.5, g3=4.5, g4=3.5, g5=5.0, c;
14
15 /* Compute cumulative average point. */
16 c = (m1*g1 + m2*g2 + m3*g3 + m4*g4 + m5*g5)/
17 (m1 + m2 + m3 + m4 + m5);
18
19 /* Print distance. */
20 printf("Nemo's Cumulative Average Point is %5.2f \n", c);
21
22 /* Exit program. */
23 return 0;
24 }
25 /*------------------------------------------------------------*/
"tutorial12.c" 25L, 765C written
u0706704@sunfire [22:30:25] ~/c $ gcc -Wall tutorial12.c
u0706704@sunfire [22:30:35] ~/c $ ./a.out
Nemo's Cumulative Average Point is 3.58
u0706704@sunfire [22:30:40] ~/c $
This is a simple C program. But I always get errors. A " and a' makes alot of difference. That is why it is so easy to get lots of errors. I kept redoing and checking until finally, I love the feeling of having to accomplish my task without errors.
My classmates are selfish because they rather keep their answers to themselves. I asked them why like this or how to do, their BEST reply is, "Like that Lor"
WTF. Go die la. If people ask me how to do, I make sure I will be a nice teacher and teach them until they understand. eh...but most of the time I always the one who is blur, slow and asking questions.. no wonder no one ask me to teach them....sobs:(( oh wells.
But I guess in this competitive environment, alot of things are self-study. Go borrow textbooks and go Google to research and read more.
The lecturers just read lecture notes from powerpoint slides. Tutors make use of 20 minutes out of 45 mins to finish the lesson and dismiss class. GOSH! I rather be pampered like how I was spoon-fed in JC and secondary school. Now I am so independent, and I have not get used to it.
It is necessary to have textbooks for every modules. To graduate, I need to complete at least 40 modules. Don't tell me I need to get 40 textbooks? I bought 2 textbooks, each about $40, 1 of them was a second hand book.
So I decided to save money by going to the library to borrow textbooks. There is only 1 and only 1 textbook there for each module. But you can only borrow it for 2 hours. (popular recommended textbooks) If you have not return the book after 2 hours, you will be fined $1 per minute.
So today I stayed back in the library to read a book on physics -Free body diagram.
I have to start mugging. I realise I need to catch up now, everybody is ahead of me. Damn. Programming is fun now =)) Isaac injected this mindset in me that with practice, programming will be fun and easy.
jastubee =)) 10:44 PM.
Monday, August 20, 2007
My own diagnosis - Migraine
My head feels like this.

I am feeling very terrible. This thurdsay I will need my doctor to refer me to MRI brain scan. (In MRI, a powerful magnet linked to a computer is used to make detailed pictures of areas in the body. These pictures are viewed on a monitor and can also be printed.)
Something wrong is with me, I went to www.wrongdiagnosis.com and add multiple symtpoms to show what are the possbile diagnosis. This is a self diagnosis test and it is very useful.
But, some of them is way too far-fetched like AIDS/HIV or STROKE.



I think I am having migraine, serious acute migraine. Migraine can never be cured, my father is now having migraine, my father's sister also have migraine. I guess migraine runs through the family.
Now I feel like vomiting, PUKE OFF
jastubee =)) 12:13 PM.
Sunday, August 19, 2007
Freaking headache, cancer is it...
I am on medication and on MC, I have to bloody hell skip school because I have either motion sickness, gastric flu or migraine.
I just have this headache and feeling nausea everytime I go to school. I take bus 74 to ngnee ann poly and change to 151 to reach NUS. But because the journey is very long and the bus likes to stop and move and jerk due to heavy traffic, I always go to school feeling very headache.
I wanted to vomit in school, I took all my medicine and they are causing me to feel drowsy. So I slept in lectures, WTF. I don't sleep in lectures okies. And this is only the first week of school, and I am dozing off in lectures.
I tried to open my eyes, but my eyes just kept closing until the lecturer final said, ":I think some of you have short attention span, lets take a 10 mins break"
F my headache. It is freaking pain, it is preventing me to enjoy life. I am physically and mentally-deprived. I can't go out too often because I am afraid I will have cold sweat and faint outside.
I don't want to be a burden to anyone. If my headache is still lingering in my head, I rather kill myself. The pain sucks.
I am only 19 years old, why should these problems meant for old people come into my life? Am I having cancer? I rather die early, I don't want to suffer so much of this headache.
I went for a full body check up last year, my blood count was alright. So I need not go for brain scan. The reason why the doctor suggested me to go for a brain scan is because every year, I will have this problem at least once a year.
So the doctor said if by next wednesday and I am still having headache, tadaaa! something wrong is with me.
My headache is like as if there is something blowing up in my skull until it expands so much that it hurts my brain. If there is a brain tumour, I rather die than to remove it.
If is because of motion sickness that I get this headache, the doctor suggested that I should stay in a hostel or take MRT instead. Taking Mrt I have to change 2 buses and change 1 MRT. It will be twice as expensive compared to my normal trip of changing one bus.
I do have motion sickness but it is more for ferries. I can't go on a cruise or take ferries because I have serious imbalance in my head, I get dizzy very eaasily. Maybe this is my first time taking long journey buses that is why I get this freaking headache.
My headache sucks! Jesus heal me!
jastubee =)) 12:46 PM.
Monday, August 13, 2007
Be smart in a relationship
Somebody enlightened me in STomp forums.
How do you know whether the guy is not a jerk and he is a good person?
It's always a battle between Rationale and Feelings.
Feelings are what you feel when you're in love, with the right or wrong person. You feel you like this jerk, no matter how bad he is. This is what people mean when they say "Blinded by love".
Rationale is when you know exactly what kind of a guy you want. Rationale is when you know how you want him to treat you. It's the "right" decision, once you know that you won't regret tomorrow.
I am sticking with my Rationale, once the guy starts to hurt me, I will say BYE BYE to him, because once bitten twice shy.
I was foolish in the past, I was blinded by love, no matter how my ex-boyfriend scold or hurt me, I still loved him. It was all crap, I was so stupid in the past.
Now, I know that God will prepare something better for me. I should move on with life if anything happens.
But now I am really happily in love. I have this strong feelings that I found THE ONE. But heart does change sometimes, so I have to let the future guide me and not making a decision now.
Live the NOW, not the future.
jastubee =)) 11:30 PM.
Thursday, August 09, 2007
Happy Birthday Singapore!
I spent the whole day at home on National Day because I just recovered from gastric flu. My gastric flu was so serious that I felt like chopping of my head because my headache is killing me, I wanted to vomit, wanted to burp but it was so unsuccessful.
Monday we had lots more fun activities during orientation. Caterpillar game.

In the morning we had to wear formal wear for our freshmen inauguartion ceremony. Out of all the perfomances like Jasmine Tye, Singapore idol finalist and other bands, I like the end of the ceremony. It was buffet lunch. DAMN NICE, I had my second servings. haha.
Jasmine Tye, NUS student

I was drenched with Soya sauce, ice lemon tea, peach tea, water and melted soaked biscuits. ALL the waterbombs were forfeit, so my whole shirt was so smelly. I smelt so sweet at the same time saltly due to my perspiration.
Details and photos will be uploaded later.
On Tuesday, I was supposed to go for NUS flag day, but I did not participate because I have done too much flag day that I realised it was really useless. Durai and the NKF problems had already prevented so many people from donating. I was in AMK and I saw lots of NUS students asking for donations, I donated $4 in total. At least I did my part as a donater, so I still particiapted in flag day, haha.
I was already not feeling well on tuesday, I thought I was just having some motion-sickness because I sat too long in the bus or in the car.
At night, I wanted to vomit, my head just kept spinning, my headache was sucking up my energy. I kept tyring to burp, I was really exhausted, I felt so weak that cold sweat started to appear on my body. I was so weak that I had no more strength to muster to head back home.
I popped on my bed and ate a Vertigo pill for headache. The next day, I woke up early in the morning for my Sentosa Orientation. I was looking forward to this day, it would be more fun and fun. However after I bathed, I realised I was feeling worse than before. My headache is worse and it is killing me. I wanted to vomit too. I called Jun Lin that I was not feeling well and could not make it for the sentosa trip.
DAMN, I went to see a doctor and she said I got a viral gastric flu. WTF. I slept the whole day and when I woke up, I missed the deadline for my NUS bidding of modules. Nevermind I can bid again and Isaac is helping me to bid because I am going for Roadrunner in town tomorrow with my orientation group.
This kind of system of bidding modules to get your lectures suck big time. It is like gambling or playing with shares. I am allocated 1000 points for every semester, so I must use my points wisely to bid my modules. Our seniors have more points, so I have to compete my modules with them. NVM it is complicated, it is just like lining up for donuts at the donut factory. I have to keep on going online to check the next minimum bid and bid points for the modules. If successful, I get my bid points refunded.
I will be staying overnight tomorrow in school. I love school and friends, haha.
I watched the National Day Parade. Why is it that the show is so wayang and childish at the same time? Lots of opera singers and the audience were wearing lion or monkey caps. I was laughing at Lee Kuan Yew because he was wearing the lion cap on his head. Young at heart lor.
I love National Day when I was young, I got to have freebies and a small flag. We would sing lots of songs. I can remember
Count On Me Singapore
Stand up for Singapore
Singapore our homeland
Home
We are Singapore
and more.
But now, maybe I have seen almost 19 NDP, so I just got bored over it. Mayflower Secondary School performed in NDP, it was really CMI. What a disgrace to my secondary school. It was not fantastic at all, they were just wearing metal wings and moving there and here. They should make their costumes more shiny. I like all the performances from Soka Association, was appealing and attractive.
My brother was laughing at one scene whereby the civil defence force and the fire fighters came out of their vehicles to pose. haha, he was like OMG. haha.
Nothing interesting happen to me on National Day, my friends were out watching fireworks. I stayed at home with my family to watch NDP. haha.
A question to ponder. If you were molested, will you drop the case or go after the molester? But what if is on National Day? Will you forgive him? I know I am asking a retarded question, because I found a retarded thread.

She decided to forgive that molester because it was National Day. Then next time molesters should molest on special days so that they can be forgiven. If I am a molester, I can give excuse like
"Auntie, today is National Day, let me off leh"
"Auntie, today is my birthday, I don't want to go to jail, forgive me"
Ok NVM. Just ranting crap.
My brother's radio is blasting National Day Songs now and my gastric is acting up again. Happy 42nd birthday Singapore!
jastubee =)) 9:45 PM.
Sunday, August 05, 2007
NUS orientation is getting more sexual
My orientation group is called Raichu. You know that evolved Pikachu? If you don't know who is Pikachu, please go find out what is pokemon.
Raichu in Wikipedia
It has orange fur, a white underbelly, brown paws and yellow sacs on its cheeks. Its ears are large and pointed and partially curly and it has a whip-like tail that ends in a yellow lightning bolt shape. This end of the tail is flat in females and pointed in males. It also has no visible fingers.
Like all Electric-type Pokémon, electricity features prominently in Raichu's life processes. Raichu absorbs electric charges from the environment as needed by either planting its tail in the ground or raising it in the air to gather electricity from the atmosphere. It then stores the accumulated charge in its cheek pouches, like its pre-evolved form Pikachu.
So I belong to Raichu from the Monster House. I have about 10 guys and 10 girls in my group. My Orientation group leader is Jun Lin and I have other assistant Ogls taking care of Raichu.
My OGLs made this Raichu Mascot. So cute right?

We played some ice breaker games, so I got to know my team mates. 99% of my team memebers were from Junior colleges, I wonder where the international students went to.
After lunch we played some station games. Treasure hunt and some ball games. There are a few stations which I think they were fun.
60 balls
There are 60 over A4 sizes of paper pasted around an open area with trees, tables and branches. We have to pass a ball starting from number 1 to 2 to 3 until 60. Each person must use their leg or butt to touch that piece of paper and station there to receive the ball from the previous number.
If the ball drops, we have to move back 5 numbers, if the ball is thrown out of boundary, we have to move back 10 numbers.
So the numbered papers were in trees, under the table, high up on the wall, behind doors and on staircase. I was number 2 and I use my butt to lean against the window to receive the ball from a person stepping onto paper number 1.
We were switching places quickly to pass the ball until number 60. I threw 2 times too far out that it always landed outside the boundary. My ball skills suck.
Deal or No Deal
We have to be in pairs, so my OGL paired me with this
*cough guy. We have to do a number of forfeits like drinking weird stuff that tasted like shit and an RA "stunt"
A piece of paper is folded into many pieces, each pair has to use their mouths to unfold the paper. The paper is fcuking small la, I was fcuking grossed out and yelling, :"oh my gosh".
After that we sabotaged our OGLS to do that "kissing" forfeit. My OGL is the one wearing a red t-shirt, Alvin is the one wearing a sleevless tank top.


So GAY right?
After dinner we had this Secret Pal session. Honestly I love this segment, it was so thrilling and exciting at the same time.
A guy will be pair off with you and he is called your secret pal. But we can't ask each other names and group names, we just have to talk to each other and know more about each other. The exciting part is that
WE WERE BLINDFOLDED!
I really prayed to have a shuai ge as my secret pal, because I have to dance with him one day, the day when we finally reveal our face. Do you think he is shuai?

My secret pal and I were left alone to talk to each other blindfolded. He is also attached! Haha, we were so eager to see each other's face. But we told each other that in order to make this game more thrilling, we shall not reveal our faces or find our identity until the day when we reveal our face.
My OGLs were playing a fool with us, somebody put his/her hand on my hand, I shrieked and said to my Secret Pal beside me, "You Biantai! Why you go touch my hand!" He said he never, that means somebody was actually beside us, eavesdropping us too.
It was so nice to hear about his relationship and his hobbies. He loves rock songs too! Especially Linkin Park. Haha. He is devoted guy too, a nice guy indeed=))
I want a guy bestfriend, and I think he fits it because he is attached! Everytime my guy bestfriends will fall in love with me and I hate that when it affected my friendship with them. That is why I don't have any guy bestfriend now. All my girlfriends do have many guy bestfriends, it is so nice to have a bestfriend who is from the opposite sex so that I can pour my relationship problems to him and understand guys better.
It was a fun day today, I am looking forward to more games and more secret pal sessions on monday!
jastubee =)) 8:05 PM.
Friday, August 03, 2007
I bought a new Fujitsu Laptop! But service sucks!
I purchased Fujitsu S6410 from NUS during the matriculation fair for my NUS registration. I checked online, forums and friends, they recommended Fujitsu, they said Fujitsu is made in Japan, there are less problems compared to other models like Acer or Thinkpad.

They helped me install NUS domain and everything needed. They helped me checked dead pixels too.
When I used my laptop for a few hours later, I saw a light blue dot! A dead pixel! I ignored it, after a few hours later, the pixel grew brighter and larger. I informed my father about this and he said we will ask for an exchange the next day.
Today I woke up and on my laptop. I did not see that dead pixel. Phew, it is gone.
BUT after 30 minutes, that small blue dot appear again! When I use my laptop longer, the dot grew brighter. So my father drove me to NUS with the laptop to get an exchange.
We went to NUS to speak to the Fujitsu salesperson. She said we cannot exchange because the
policy states that exchange of laptops for dead pixels is only for the day itself. Today is the second day, I can't get an exchange.
My father was angry he said what about using the warranty. She said warranty is valid if there are more than 7 dead pixels. And all the dumb shit
policies.
She said on the day itself they have already check for dead pixels and I was there to witness it, they will know whether the computer is defect.
But the thing is that, my dead pixel only appear after a few minutes!!!
She said there is no such thing. Dead pixels appear immediately when you on the laptop. She refuses to let us show her my laptop because she still thinks that we are sprouting nonsense.
She said she never come across a dead pixel appearing only after a few minutes, and kept rejecting us. She was so inflexible! Can't she just see my laptop???
My father was so angry that he shouted and argued infront of her. It was a heated arguement between both of them, Acer and Fujitsu people were looking at us. Customers were also looking at us.
I don't mind my father arguing with her, I don't mind losing my face, but I mind that they should get a solution for me. I just bought my laptop and I got a rare unusual dead pixel, and you don't get it exchange for me because of your
POLICIES.
Can't she emphasize our situation by looking at my laptop and tell me how I can solve that dead pixel?
Another salesperson came to intervene the conversation and told us to argue at another corner. They decided to check my laptop. They found no dead pixels.
We told them to wait, then after 10 minutes, the light blue dot appear. They were surprised to see it. I told them it will grow bigger and brighter after using the laptop longer. After they discussed, they finally allow us to get our LCD changed for free.
Finally, they allowed us to get my LCD change. Why were they so rigid with their
policies? My dead pixel is a rare condition, since it is not stated in the policies, can't you use your brain to think of what solution you can provide for the customer?
She should emphaise a customer's situation by checking her laptop. She still reject me because she has those policies to abide by. She finally apologised to my father because she did not know about that unusual dead pixels, my father also apologised to her because he argued with her so loudly just now.
To be a good salesperson, please understand the customer first. Put customer before policies. Be flexible.
BTW I went to complain in forums. Haha.
http://forums.hardwarezone.com/showthread.php?t=1686250
Alot of people also said some Fujitsu salespersons are not up to standard. And this forum guy helped me found something about my "dead" pixels.
The unusual dead pixel that I have on my laptop is not called a dead pixel. It is called a stuck pixel. A dead pixel should be black in colour and shown immediately on start up, but stuck pixel is a coloured pixel.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dead_pixel
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Stuck_pixel
HOW COME THOSE Fujitsu salespersons don't know about STUCK PIXELS when they saw my laptop? They called it the "unusual dead pixel" because they have never seen it before. What poor knowledge they have also.
Service sucks and poor knowledge = Go quit your job.
jastubee =)) 11:56 PM.
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
Engineering is not more for guys, is more for foreigners
I know that if I enter this engineering course, I expect to see more guys than girls. But during the welcome session cum orientation, I saw more foreigners than singaporeans!
I was frantically searching for "normal" people in the lecture theatre. Jessica Lau is also the same class as me. We are both from mechanical engineering and some more same class! She is my secondary school sec 3 and 4 classmate and NYJC cca friends. Thats cool!
We were surrounded by indians and china and vietnamese people. Instead of acting like a local, I felt like a tourist there.
Even my friend is doing a project with 2 china people, 1 indian and 1 indonesian. No SINGAPOREAN in her Project Management faculty.
I think NUS is flooded with foreigners. Maybe NTU has lesser foreigners.
When I came out of the lecture to have a lunch buffet. The queue was packed with so many people! There was this trend. All the first few ones were chinese followed by indians followed by a few dots of Singaporeans.
Singapore is a red dot, I think I am also feeling like a red dot in NUS.
What shock me is that, the people infront grabbed so much food and piled their food up so high on their plates that when I reached there, there were not much noodles and rice. The basic food there were all own gone, left all the small minor ingredients.
So..
I ate many fishballs and curry puffs. WTF. There are people more kiasu than us sia. I think we should stay cool, I don't mind not getting enough food, as long as I can survive why not. Why must rush to take all the food? Will die ar?
NO BIG DEAL.
I bet these international students not only rush to get more food, they are also rushing to get more honours and PHD. They are really CLEVER than us. Let them be then.
jastubee =)) 9:36 PM.